this week i made my daughter a dress. i spent hours looking through my fabric to find just the right combination. i spent more time laboring over making a new pattern, redid the pattern, made 123048574896583 mistakes, worked with teeny tiny bias tape, and this is how it turned out. huge, full of errors. i could not wait to get the dress on matilda. she cried hysterically. she didn't like it either. it will fit her when she's 12. for now it's a maxi dress.
this dress pretty much sums up my internal life right now: nothing's good enough. i can't seem to please anyone, including myself. praying big time for clarity in my life. also praying that God would do a work on my heart. that when squeezed i would produce the fruits of the spirit and not bitterness and frustration.
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also, it has been anything but cake raising an almost three year old lately and everyone seems to have the solution and wants to tell me what i'm doing wrong. it's exhausting. throw your hands in the air exhausting. matilda has always been a screamer. i don't know when or how it started but it has been at least since she was 18 months old. it's so embarrassing and people make these judgy faces and she did it on sunday when we dropped her off at the nursery at church and everyone was like, "wow, that's intense"!
i have tried everything and i'm just coming to terms with the fact that it's most likely a phase. i just love her so much and she's the sweetest girl. i think she is having major toddler power struggles. we're also potty training so when i put her in her bed for time out she pees. on purpose. all over the bed. pray for me please, that i would be able to guide her and help her to use all of that energy and might for good. i am just terrified that i'm going to screw up.
-sincerely crazed mother